I made an appointment with a consular the same one we went to as a group but I am hopeful that I can get some clarity, I guess. I know that she doesn't give answers or advice but somehow I am looking to her for help I hope she can.
biggest problem right now ? I am not sure of what the questions are that need answering.
had the car looked at after towing and the complete systems check I have more knowledge and a lot less money ! $245. to be exact. and a car that is making noise in the motor, now the tech said I could spend more money it would be a minimum of 3 hours mechanic time to confirm their diagnostic but he would not recommend it. the motor is getting ready to throw a rod.
so the "X to be" has offered to the Son a new rebuilt motor but at the garage of his choice and the restraining order must be dropped . Son took the car to the garage but I am not sure what to do about the restraining order. I am afraid he will come here and hurt me or my animals or the house itself, I do not need that stress, I have to find a new place to live. I have to figure out how to live on my own again. find my will power. I am so tired. weary to the bone tired. but I will get better I have to.
all the loss of those I consider family has been the worst grief I have ever experienced. cannot tell you how the sense of loss drowns me at times. Grand children, children, the love of my life, I don't know why they are all taken from me at once Lord, But I am doing my best to come out of this comfortably numb place. I have to hold to the fact you will not give me more than I can handle. but geeze enough already, please. Thank You.
Found it !
Blessings to one and all, L
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I don't know why the most loving, helpful, caring person I've ever known attracts so many bloodsuckers. Saying "you deserve better" is such an understatement.
I am having lots of trouble figuring this one out I must have been very very bad.....
but thank you your kind words and every one elses that matters have helped me lean forward :)
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