I am blessed with many and I realize how blessed I am.
parents and siblings are generally our first friends.... in my case parents became friends in my 30s. siblings above me abused me and went on with life, so did I, below me moved away, and when I moved nearer him, he was grown. while we have an okay relationship, we are not close.
but Friends.... now there I am blessed! starting with Kindergarten and Dusti. Thank you God for giving her to me so early in life, she is my rock. I am here now in new york for her. wishing I could do more.
I am hoping to see the wedding of my 2nd oldest friend, since 7th grade, the end of summer. she is happy and that is what we want for those we love, Happiness.
was planning on seeing some old growth forests this weekend, but the 30 year long friendship i was to travel with crashed again, this time however different . this time I know the fragile state he is in,(been there) and I cannot help him, at least not as much as he wants me to, he must do this himself. Zane is right, ask again, but don't get involved. how do I not get involved with someone I love? hurts happen. you talk you forgive you go on. I Pray and I worry a bit but I go on! I am learning to , think first (comes hard), speak softly and hug often. oh yes.... loving from a distance..... sucks when you feel like cuddling.....
our children become a source of friendship as they mature, where would I be with out Zane? he houses me, makes sure I am fed and keeps me sane and out of jail!...
I Thank God for Carrie too. Grandchildren are such a special gift. the hope for all our futures.
then there's my animals, their entire life is my responsibility, and they give total unconditional love almost every minute of their lives, no matter what my pain levels are. yes God Thank You for all my blessings
parents and siblings are generally our first friends.... in my case parents became friends in my 30s. siblings above me abused me and went on with life, so did I, below me moved away, and when I moved nearer him, he was grown. while we have an okay relationship, we are not close.
but Friends.... now there I am blessed! starting with Kindergarten and Dusti. Thank you God for giving her to me so early in life, she is my rock. I am here now in new york for her. wishing I could do more.
I am hoping to see the wedding of my 2nd oldest friend, since 7th grade, the end of summer. she is happy and that is what we want for those we love, Happiness.
was planning on seeing some old growth forests this weekend, but the 30 year long friendship i was to travel with crashed again, this time however different . this time I know the fragile state he is in,(been there) and I cannot help him, at least not as much as he wants me to, he must do this himself. Zane is right, ask again, but don't get involved. how do I not get involved with someone I love? hurts happen. you talk you forgive you go on. I Pray and I worry a bit but I go on! I am learning to , think first (comes hard), speak softly and hug often. oh yes.... loving from a distance..... sucks when you feel like cuddling.....
our children become a source of friendship as they mature, where would I be with out Zane? he houses me, makes sure I am fed and keeps me sane and out of jail!...
I Thank God for Carrie too. Grandchildren are such a special gift. the hope for all our futures.
then there's my animals, their entire life is my responsibility, and they give total unconditional love almost every minute of their lives, no matter what my pain levels are. yes God Thank You for all my blessings
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So glad you're up there. Do what you can, step back when you must. I'm glad you posted again. It's been too long.
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