wonderful to see family and friends

sad to say goodbye to a beloved pet at my daughters, then her friend a young mother of 4 girls youngest 2 still at home, lost her battle with cancer.  making it very clear to me forgive and forget get on with the loving.
my Mom could really use good thoughts and Prayers. the building she lives in has continued to bully the residents, Mom can't have flowers on her patio now, they have taken away every thing she had on her 3x8 ground level patio. they are allowing her to keep her hanging baskets, tho if the hooks are not approved she will have to take them down and get some approved hooks and no "the maintenance guys will not install them for you so do not ask them"    I can't believe what they are doing is legal, but cannot convince Mom to seek legal advice.  so Prayers please !
I took my darling little Ivy to live with Sallie & Jerry.  hardest thing I have done. but she is in good  company and loves them too so I know she will be okay looking after Buzz.
I got to take her for a spa day before leaving so she was so cute and sassy when I left broke my heart.

 Thank You God for the angels in my life. 
Prayers & Blessings to All
Larena

May 22nd, 2012

 Z's view of Hurricane Ridge

 large tree on the Geyser Vally Trail.

 spring 2012 Madison Falls

winter picture of Ivy.
just some of the treasures I will miss.
taking steps of faith.   hoping all that I have prayed about is coming along as well, sending Love Light & Prayers to all friends and family. the coming months are looking to be busy for most and  I am no exception.  while I will be checking on you I will not be here for a while,  so have a great summer. enjoy every minute as if it were your last, for we never know when it will be.

Mothers Day 2012

SO BEAUTIFUL

GEYSER VALLEY LOOP.  great first hike,  pleasant people to walk with and what a beautiful day it was. wanting more days just like it.  and the big moon what a sight that has been, our world is changing faster than we are aware, Prayers to us all.

yikes May day tomorrow !

another month gone.
 went to lunch today with an old neighbor. was good to see her, tho I am so overwhelmed and over stimulated from our conversation. somewhat angered that she is right, I need to quit the Larmore family. cards facebook attachments etc... so hard on me  and I do not know why ?
 time is flying by at a snails pace....  probably makes no sense but it is how I feel. I know many wonderful people. I am so very blessed
 I am going to come back from this devastation,   I AM. 
maybe just not here. I am at risk and my being here brings greater risk to those I care about.  when he finally gets his way he will go away trouble is there is no way to give him what he wants cuz as soon as he gets what he wants,  he wants something else and on and on and on.....till I was out of money.  then he was out of love for me too. 
 looking back at the relationship has been a horror movie for me, not getting any better the closer we get to court date. he once told me that if any one ever "displeased him" he would kill them and drop the body in some very remote places.   then we went camping in remote places, some times gives me chills thinking of walks we took and times he "jokingly" pushed me towards the edge of what ever we were over looking..... Yellowstone canyon comes  to mind first because a grand child saw him do it...........  and my with my brain & balance issues, it tis a wonder he did not get rid of me somewhere along the line, he would have claimed accidental and no one would have been the wiser.....
 " so you see Johnnie, I must have every bit as good ( if not better) Angels than you, they kept me alive through you."  and they are getting thru after you and after we are finished legally I will finish healing I WILL FINISH HEALING.    just when you realize what you have lost.  poor you.   but then you never really had an attachment so I could be totally wrong and you will happily skip off into the wilds that are the rest of your days. Hopefully our paths NEVER cross again.  I do not trust you.  I consider you a threat to my very existence, I will keep the restraining order in effect and add it to any in the 50 that I can even if it means I have to approach a judge in each and every one, I will not be left unprotected from you,  nor will I rely on any one else for my safety.  I will defend myself with deadly force.
I am going back east. just not sure how yet.
need to call attorney tomorrow.  seems to me that there are really no answers for me.
I need ?

  these are recent heritage pages I have done.  I look at the woman in some of these photos and good God there is rampant unhappiness 

seriously wonder about the mental health of women  from generations of  MEN shit

     saw something on Facebook that keeps me laughing I will leave you with it:

"I was fucking stupid..........................................................
........................................then we broke up.